Posted on Friday, 10 February
Why do I still get sawi everytime I see you? We’re in a better situation now more than ever, but still.. why?
Is it because of the fact that no matter how hard I try, dream, and hope, the possibility of an “us” would still be so impossible?
Is it because despite all my efforts in trying to get you off of my mind since we both know you are bad for me, I still cannot not feel head over heels for you?
Or is it simply because I have found no escape from this feeling and that I might have to actually admit to myself that you are so damn special to me?
Tell me, WHY?
I died..
Posted on Monday, 6 February
Last last night was surely one for the books. I died.
Just the day before that I was this girl with all the hopes of having moments with this guy, that without a doubt makes my heart skip a beat. But because of one shitty exam, everything changed. I died.
All the possible moments with him that I hoped for happened in less than 24 hours. Sure as hell, I was blessed. From the phone calls to breakfast together to owning the passenger seat, I had to stop myself from staring and melting away. I died.
Everyone has their own fail, bangag story of him, but after that night I did not mind any of them. Rather, I found them real cute, like I found joy in his flaws. From his constant I-am-really-clueless questions to his out of the blue comments, I had to stop myself from smiling too much. I died.
And to be honest, if there is one thing I learned about him was that despite his too-much-swag and douchebag vibe, deep down he is really a good person. From being real polite to volunteering to watch over us as we sleep, I had to stop myself from trying to cuddle him. I died.
Up to this moment (after two days), I still cannot believe that those things really happened. It was just so surreal. But what else can I say, miracles do happen and maybe I’ve been real good that I deserve those moments with him. I died.
He might not know it but surely he makes me happy. I’ve never been this genuinely happy before. And with just one look.. I died.
Posted on Friday, 27 January
Maybe that’s all I needed. A solid proof to the impossibility of you and me </////3
